Over the past couple of weeks I’ve noticed that I have gotten into a habit of either watching TV while I eat or being on my phone. At first I thought it was a case of “I don’t have enough time” rushing around so I must do as much as I can in a short space of time, however even when I don’t necessarily have to rush anywhere I am still in that “rushing” mode.
I literally have found it so uncomfortable to sit and eat without doing anything else, let alone eat slowly.
So I dived in with curiosity and started asking questions.
I have been asking myself, why is this happening? What does it mean?
Why is it so uncomfortable to actually be with myself while I’m eating?
It’s like I don’t want to feel. I just sort of want to zone out.
I realised today that for about 2 months I have been constantly rushing here there and everywhere. Somehow filling up my calendar with not a lot of spaciousness.
So, today I consciously made space and time to cook myself a nice lunch, eat it without doing anything else.
It was bloody hard! I realised I had quite a lot of emotional and mental tension. My mind kept wondering off to all the things I need to get done.
Why is it so hard to eat slowly?
Just staying curious while being gentle and kind with myself through this.
I’d love to hear about your experiences. Whether you want to share here or PM me.